Thursday, September 8, 2016

Diary: What was my objective of this blog?

I have been spending my time working for a clutch of positivity for as long as I could remember.
I pump in all of my efforts to complete them to the best that I could.
I have enough.

I work for my passion. A passion that has turned a once negative girl to a pistachio (and part-time Harley Quinn).

Many thought I earn money from this hobby but I actually do not earn money from here...
I started to blog with a thought that I could document my fashion styles which I could finally afford after working part time.

Then things changed. In the most horrifying manner that I could not imagine.
Money got scary.
Social media become a money making tool.
Peeps assume that I earn big bucks from the campaigns that I have published on my blog.
Actually no.

 I want to. 

 I need to learn how. 

 I did give it a try.

 Added google ads on my blog but it was repeatedly denied. 

However, I did somehow learn something from my blog.

Through blogging, I have earn friends.

The representatives who emailed me to participate in their campaigns. The emails are always filled with positive thoughts and excitement. Seeking for participants very politely. When I received my very first email, I was in Canada ( Hehehe... you must have thought about some idioms, right? ). I actually ask for money.

My heart raced fast cos I thought I will never receive any reply from them again.

Shortly after, they replied. They replied with sincerity. I could feel the earnest from the email. They apologised that they could not offer me any credits. Without hesitation, I drafted my very first blog advertisement post. All thanks to this company I earned my very first collaboration.

And then after which, more emails came.

Recently, I created a new email for blog collaborations purposes.

I was happy.

However, for the past few weeks. I feel the tension. The anxiety that I am experiencing.
I somehow forgot what was the reason I created this blog.

I am still in a deep thought. I am still trying to find an answer to my question that I asked myself.

What was my objective of this blog?
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Sunday, July 3, 2016

OOTD #46: Diner En Blanc Avec Vous

Hey ladies, 

I need to have a heart to heart talk with you. Which is, I would really love to hear about what do you think of my blog.

Honestly, I would occasionally read my own blog. I spot the grammar errors, the type of passive words I use to elevate the muse of the contents. And then, I realized that I always create contents which target on women. 

In a few of my blog posts ( e.g OOTD #41: The Lust Vegas ), I always attach phrases like, 

" .. now guys, you can now match up with your pretty ladies.." 

there is never once it is the lady who matches her outfit with her gentleman in my blog. And yes ladies, for this post you will have to match up with your guy for a Diner En Blanc. 

What is Diner En Blanc?

"...the mysterious “Dinner in White” or Diner en Blanc (because it’s a French tradition), a global dining event that despite the veil of secrecy shrouding it, spreads to more cities every year on its way to becoming an international phenomenon. It happens just once a year, in the summer: By the hundreds and thousands, on a date determined city by city, people around the world, dressed in white, meet at a beautiful, central public location to share a gourmet dinner with friends. "



So ladies, here is the mission!

Here is an inspiring outfit with the White Jacket Tuxedo which you can get it for him, from The Black Tux 's Tuxedos & Suits collection.

So ladies, are you ready for your match-a-mation?
Sorry, you do not have a chance to say no. Do not forget who is always the one who match up with you. YOUR PARTNER.

Now, unleash your inner fashion soul. Tell me your style.

What what ??? You cannot decide? You do not know?

That is how your partner feels whenever you say "How can you not knowww??? "

Do not fear. Cos' your fashion god-mother, me, is going to help you.

Now think. What does white reminds you of?
White associates with light, goodness, innocence, purity, and virginity. It is considered to be the color of perfection. 

 and yes, WEDDING! 
Allow me introduce to you - The Wedding Guest Style Guide by The Black Tux. 

 Now you have 5 mins to decide when a guy can get ready in 5 mins! 
Now 3... 2... 1... *GO*
You are taking too long girl.

I am going to style all of you in this white dress I wore to my girl friend Eliina's wedding. The perfect LWD ( Little White Dress ) for all occasion.

The main objective of the dinner is to have fun and relax while you enjoy your food under the starry sky. Other than your tables, chairs and utensils. Do not bring too many stuffs so that your man can be free from being your nanny for at least a night.

How can you still look fabulous?
Make up. Just a simple make up look will do. And when I say simple, it is not exactly simple. You add on to the word SIMPLE.

The only thing I will do to my beautiful face will be my eyebrows! For this look I will add in something extra - BLUE EYELINER.

Yes! I have finally bought my blue eyeliner! Tell me how pretty am I ~
One of the boards have fell off and left a "scar" on the wall. Hahaha.
Now you are all ready for 4th of July and also your Diner En Blanc.

Quote of the post
“In order to be irreplaceable, one must always be different.” 
― Coco Chanel

This blog post is in collaboration with The Black Tux. 
Photos are self-shot using Nikon d5300.
Photos are enhanced using Adobe Photoshop CC 2015.
Outfits are not sponsored and are coordinated by me. 
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Monday, June 13, 2016

Empowering woman of the Year 2016- Iskra

According to my personal self- built database, the most empowering woman of Year 2015 goes to....
*Drum roll*

None other than- ASHLEY GRAHAM!

A photo posted by A S H L E Y G R A H A M (@theashleygraham) on

She is the reason behind how many women suffer from low self-esteem, have reformed and learn to love themselves even more. She is a big girl. And so, big girls don't cry.

For this random blog post of mine, I have decided to choose my most favourite woman who meets the criteria like Miss Universe - Beauty with a purpose and feature her as THE EMPOWERING WOMAN OF THE YEAR 2016. According to me, of course!
The winner issssssssss
*search the entire Shirley Charlin's database*
...our beloved Miss Iskra! The photo below was what inspired me to write this blog post. 

✨ I had almost forgotten what I used to look like when I was battling with my body and my own thoughts of self loathing. One of my dearest gfs @iammelwells sent this pic to me today of us both when we were trying to break into the modelling industry. 👭I never knew that she was struggling with the same thoughts as me and neither did she know I was. 👩‍❤️‍👩The two young women in this photo both thought they were fat and too big. would pick themselves apart and then workout like mad at the gym or restrict what they ate because they had body dysmorphia. Some of you may look at the old me on the left and think I was slimmer and therefore healthier. No health is NOT a size it is a state of wellbeing. I did not have healthy thoughts or love myself. It took years to get to this point and there are still days were I let the dark thoughts creep in. Only yesterday I went to try some jeans on, the server said they would definitely fit (I mean they are the biggest size a 29) I couldn't get them further than my knees. 😪For a split second I was about to crumble because it can be anything that triggers those demons to come back. All those years I couldn't fit into clothes or was told I was too big to ever make it as a model. But mostly the boundaries I had put on myself that my happiness would be determined by a number on the scales or that number in my jeans. Which is so F****d up because the truth is YOU get to decide your self worth no one or nothing else. You have to turn around to yourself and take control and say I am good enough, and I will be happy today and I know that I am beautiful because I am me. So please know that you are not alone, you may think you are the only one who hates what they see in the mirror but trust me a LOT of us have felt or still do feel that way. But you deserve to love yourself, it may take time but start today and never give up. ❤️ #iskralawrence #everyBODYisbeautiful thank you @iammelwells for creating your book the #TheGoddessRevolution sharing your journey and helping to heal our relationships with ourselves and food you are incredible 💕🙌🦄✨💫
A photo posted by 🌙iskra✨ (@iamiskra) on

I was surprised when I first saw this photo of hers in my Instagram feed. She was not a plus size model in the beginning. So was I! Except the fact that I am not a model to begin with. Hahaha! She is still stunning even until now.

From her very first viral photo in her nude coloured lingerie with bags of chips surrounding her,

to that featured photo. Tell me, why will there be anyone who disagrees with me that she IS the most empowering woman of 2016!

To be honest, she is also the woman who inspires me to love myself and I have been constantly eating regularly and at least go for a walk after dinner and exercise more. Although, results are not shown in my current appearance.

Nevertheless, I feel happier than ever! I begin to look at myself in the mirror more. I love to look at myself while I dress up for work. (HEY EVERYONE! I have extended my internship! I am given more opportunities and one more step towards becoming a female programmer.)

Thinking back, I wonder why do I even waste my time and energy on people's comments about my appearance when they too look like a potato. There were times I even starved myself and lie to my friends that I was saving money. How much do I want to save? I do not know. I spent money on clothes that are trending and I do not like the those trending clothes and style looks on me. I like the french girl kind of look. If I ever want to wear something exotic, that will be Japanese Lolita outfits. Conservative, lady- like and lovely.

Right now, I spend my time doing what I love, wearing what I love and feel comfortable in. And you should too!


We should not live by what people ask us to. We live for ourselves. We live, love, pray.


Quote of the post:
I'm not a model, I'm an artist. In one of my videos, I'm doing this shot of me with no make-up on where I've just woken up, and I don't think a lot of people would be comfortable enough to do that. But that's the way I look. This is who I am. Let's enjoy it. Let's just live life to the full while we're all here." -Jessie J
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